Originally posted on common ground: The Child Citizenship Act of 2000 (CCA 2000) was passed with the intention of providing automatic U.S. citizenship for international adoptees. It has, however, a serious loophole: its provisions do not apply to adoptees who were 18 year of age or older when it went into effect on February 27,…
Lee Herrick has a poem in Perpetual Child: Dismantling the Stereotype (Adult Adoptee Anthology) called “Salvation.”
In this poem, Herrick, a Korean adoptee with two published poetry collections and poems published in numerous literary journals and magazines, borrows the language of African-American Blues music.
The blues means
finding a song
in the abandonment, one
you can sing in the middle
of the night when you
remember that your Korean name,
Lee Kwang Soo, means bright
light, something that can illuminate
or shine, like tears,
little drops of liquefied God,
glistening down your brown face.
By focusing on the sad and resilient music created from loss, the poem creates a poignancy more powerful than any storytelling.
I love the poem so much that I sought out more of Herrick’s writing–his “Blues songs.”
On his website, he shares these poems:
Because literary poetry like Herrick’s has such a small readership, I was thrilled to find his poem in the adult adoptee anthology. I hope more people will seek out more of his work. It should be read by everyone involved with adoption.
Our society has a storyline for adoption to which all involved are expected to adhere. Adoptees, birth parents, adoptive parents, friends, neighbors, extended families, teachers, and passersby have been taught these points (among others):
- Adoption “is a positive, one-time occurrence in a child’s life”
- Adoptees who don’t believe in that viewpoint are ungrateful or angry
- Adoption is an incidental fact about an adoptee, NOT “who you are at the very core of your being”
- Adoption fees are a necessary evil to pay for the costs of the paperwork, hospital bills, etc.
- Adoption is orphan rescue
- Adoption saves children from living in institutions
- Pointing out the flaws in (and helping to improve) the institution of adoption is tantamount to being against all adoption
These points are part of a credo of adoption that our society has swallowed completely. In “Question Everything, Including Adoption,” by Laura Dennis and published in Perpetual Child: Dismantling the Stereotype (Adult Adoptee Anthology), Dennis touches upon each of these misconceptions and argues that we’ve got it all wrong.
In this essay, Dennis covers all the bases of the adoption credo and presents her own arguments against each. The essay is engaging and personal.
At the center of her argument is a comparison between adoption and slavery. Because of her writing style (maybe), her case didn’t feel airtight to me. And it could have.
There are a lot of commonalities between adoption and slavery. The exchange of money for a human being, for one. A contract involving the fate of a human being that is not even signed by that person, but by others, for another feature in common.
For me, one of the great commonalities is that adoptees have been ripped from their backgrounds, origins, and genetic histories. This also happened with slaves forcibly taken from Africa and brought to the “New World.” Many adoptees and slaves/descendents of slaves have been unable to track down their own pasts.
Dennis approaches the subject in many ways and makes a lot of valid points, using concrete imagery and compelling logic. Then, just when I want her to hammer home the point, she sidesteps it. Maybe her reasoning is this: she’s stirred up so much in this essay that the reader is bound to consider the slavery-type aspects of adoption and begin to ponder the issue–and yet, by not bringing home her point, Dennis doesn’t risk comparing the wholesale atrocities of slavery perpetuated on a race of people with the plight of adoptees.
This essay covers a lot of ground and gets the reader thinking about the fundamental nature of adoption as it is practiced today in our society.
Dennis blogs at http://www.laura-dennis.com/
Lucy Chau Lai-Tuen Sheen, an adoptee born in HongKong, has a poem in Perpetual Child: Dismantling the Stereotype (Adult Adoptee Anthology) called “Musings of a Transracial Adoptee.” She grew up in the sixties in the United Kingdom.
According to the poem, Sheen was Othered and objectified not only by society, but by her adoptive mother, as well.
I was placed upon the school desk as the / subject of “bring and tell”
It was my Adoptive Mother who brought / and placed me upon the desk
This treatment happened in front of 30 white children.
The stripping away of her language, name, heritage, and culture had a profound affect on Sheen. She describes herself as being “like one of those nests of Russian dolls / The difference being there was nothing at my centre / I was empty.”
Lucy Chau Lai-Tuen Sheen is a stage and screen actor and has worked alongside some of the British acting greats. In this poem, she makes a connection between her adoption and her career.
I chose a profession where I take on different identities
Speak other people’s words and feel other people’s
It sounds as if she has spent her life trying on identities to see what fits and as a way to fill that emptiness at the center of her layered identities.
Julie Stromberg’s story “Let’s Pretend,” in Perpetual Child: Dismantling the Stereotype (Adult Adoptee Anthology), takes the reader inside the experience of an adoptee who learns that her birth certificate is a lie. Her adoptive parents are listed as her birth parents. With that lie in place, how can she trust the rest of the information on the document? What if everything else about it is a lie?
Although Stromberg is now an adult adoptee in reunion, with a family and a successful career, she still feels as if she is stuck in a game of “Let’s Pretend.”
Like many of the pieces in this anthology, Stromberg’s is short. Like the others, it hits me hard and takes me time to absorb all the thoughts and feelings it conjures up.
To think that adults are being deprived of knowledge about themselves is medieval.
Maybe Governor Christie should read Stromberg’s story. He has until April 28 to decide on the New Jersey Adoptees’ Birthright Bill that would give adopted adults over 18 access to their full original birth certificates. He vetoed a version in 2011, and he’s been dragging his heels on a decision on this one.
So far, only seven states –Alabama, Maine, New Hampshire, Rhode Island, Ohio, Oregon, and Illinois –have passed access legislation for adopted adults since 1999. I hope that Governor Christie will allow New Jersey to be the eighth. Then we need 42 more states!
Adoptee rights advocates have stiff opposition in this fight. You know what groups are against adoptees having access to their own records? New Jersey Right to Life, the state Catholic Conference, the New Jersey State Bar Association, and the American Civil Liberties Union New Jersey chapter.
That’s pretty bad when the ACLU doesn’t think adoptees should have rights. And how does giving adoptees the rights to which they have a right! affect abortion? Do you really think in this “day and age” that the stigma of illegitimate births is a big deal? Do you know what the statistics are for births occurring outside of marriage today? More than half of babies are born to unmarried women.
The whole thing is ridiculous. It’s 2014. Why are adoptees being left back in the days of repression and secrecy?
A few carefully chosen sections from Catana Tully’s memoir, Split at the Root: A Memoir of Love and Lost Identity, were selected for inclusion in Perpetual Child: Dismantling the Stereotype (Adult Adoptee Anthology). I’ve reviewed Tully’s book before at “Split Between Privilege and Denial, The Truth Brings Wholeness.” Check out the review for a better idea about this important book for anyone interested in adoption identity issues.
When you read this section in Perpetual Child you can get a sample of Tully’s powers of description and the fascinating and original details of her life story. The selections have been very carefully chosen and arranged to tell their own story within this anthology.
It might even be better, though, just to skip this section and order your copy of Tully’s book now. Read the whole thing. You won’t be satisfied with this excerpt once you see how caught up you get in her story.
Back to the portion in the anthology. There is a haunting (and gut-wrenching) scene in here. It so clearly shows what it’s like for an adoptee to have her boundaries trampled by others and to be forced to discuss in public things she doesn’t understand in her own mind and heart. In this scene, the mature adult Tully is interrogated mercilessly by a six-year-old demanding to know about Tully’s birth mother and her origins. She relentlessly hammers the woman with questions that serve to emphasize how little Tully has dealt with these issues. This child is both her own real person, but also a representation of all the children and adults and institutions that perform similar aggression on adoptees.
Read Tully here or read her in her own book. But READ HER.
Karen Pickell’s story “The Letter,” in Perpetual Child: Dismantling the Stereotype (Adult Adoptee Anthology), takes the reader on an emotional ride through the narrator’s mind.
The scenario is simple, chronicling the trip to mail a letter. The narrator is an adult adoptee with children of her own. Through a “Search Angel,” she has found the name and address of her original mother and has carefully composed a letter to her. The story begins when the narrator is getting dressed in the morning, the letter already sealed, stamped, and addressed.
The narrative is addressed to this mother, the intended recipient of the letter. In one beautiful rushing movement, like a wave that dissolves into another wave which then dissolves into another, the narrator shares her varied thoughts about the letter, her mother, her adoption, her own needs and wants, and the politics of adoption.
If that sounds like everything including the kitchen sink, it doesn’t feel that way. It’s all so seamless, so intense, and so well thought out.
The narrator is understanding about the reasons her mother wouldn’t have been able to keep her. She understands about being a Catholic girl, about what it might have been like in 1968, about how her grandparents could have had a hand in the turn the story took.
Her mind worries through a list of all that can go wrong with the letter itself. It could fall under her car tire if she throws it in the mailbox. It could be opened by a man in her mother’s house–someone who will throw it away. Her mother might throw it away herself, without even reading it.
If her mind sounds a little obsessive, that makes sense. The narrator has been waiting 37 years for this moment. She’s nervous, and it shows in her thinking.
Underneath all that thinking is her bursting heart.
As the waves move forward, each one breaking gently into the next, the suspense builds. Will she actually be able to mail the letter?
I guess you’ll have to read this story yourself. Did I mention that it brought me to tears? I suspect it will bring you to tears, too.
If you could write a letter to your birth mother or birth father, what would it say?
Here’s an invitation for adoptees to do just that–through a project by an adoptee at Rhode Island School of Design:
I’m Robin, a junior studying Graphic Design at the Rhode Island School of Design. I recently launched a project called Letters for Them. This is to be an ongoing project, and I’m hoping some of you will join me in this work.
A little background about me and my work, I was adopted when I was eight months old from Hefei, China, and as a young child I always struggled to fully understand my story. As I’ve grown up I found that art helped to work through and express the complexity of thoughts and emotions. Even now at RISD, I’m constantly looking for ways to explore my personal history in my work.
For a while now I’ve had this idea…It all began when I found some old drawings I had made as a kid (maybe six or seven years old). They were letters that I had written to my birthparents when I was first beginning to understand where I came from. They were never sent as neither I nor my mom know my birthparents nor had any way of contacting/finding them.
My mom and I went back to China between my senior year of high school and my first year at RISD. While there, we were able to visit my orphanage, which has changed quite a lot. We saw my file, which as we had expected, offered no new information as to who these unknown people were/are. Since then I continue thinking about what I’d want to say to them if I ever did have the chance to meet them. Letters for Them came as an idea that perhaps other adoptees think about this as well. Wouldn’t it be cool if we all had a common place to send these technically unsendable letters? Thus, Letters for Them was born.
Letters for Them is an open invitation to any and all adoptees. No matter how old you are or where you were adopted, whether you know your birthparents or not, if you are an adoptee, you are invited to participate. This is meant to be a public, open space for adoptees to write to their birthfathers and/or birthmothers.
To learn more about the project and ways to participate/get involved please visit: http://www.lettersforthem.com/.
This is my third post about Perpetual Child: Dismantling the Stereotype (Adult Adoptee Anthology). Lynn Grubb’s essay “Mother May I?” is a thought-provoking reflection on the perpetual child syndrome.
In this piece, Grubb structures her personal experience as a how-to manual for a game. Only it’s not a game, but her very life.
The government and the adoption agencies and her (birth) mother have all conspired to keep the narrator a perpetual child. She’s not allowed to have any knowledge of her origins unless they decide she can know. She describes the hoops she has to jump through to find her mother.
Ultimately, she does find her mother, when she’s past 40, and she asks about her father. Her mother says she has no information and, anyway, he’s a “bad man.”
The narrator tries to find the father through a DNA test, but who she finds is someone else with a dead-end.
The last part of the essay describes the feelings of rejection that she got from her mother’s decision. It wasn’t a “loving choice” or a “desperate decision” to the narrator.
Grubb describes feeling like a perpetual child in a way that I can’t stop thinking about:
Realize that you are similar to Peter Pan in that you can never grow up according to the authorities inside the adoption world.
In the adoption world of agency, adoptee, adoptive parent, birth parent, government, and the media, only the adoptee is Peter Pan. And Peter Pan is a fantasy story, not real life. It’s time that Peter is allowed out of Neverland and into the real world with knowledge of his origins and background and his larger connections in that world.